Around August of 2018, I had what I may first describe as an unusual, shocking and compelling personal experience with an ethereal Light. Precipitated by a difficult and challenging period of my life, this experience intrigued me significantly afterwards. I had gone to rest, quite pathetically, when suddenly, a little ball of light arose within the dark abyss of my consciousness. This tiny golden light then began to grow more and more intense, soon covering every inch of the darkness around me. There was a ringing in my ears that coincided with this growing light that took me into a complete and utter presence. Whatever this golden light was, it seemed to convey beauty, unconditional love and something else that words can’t ever describe.
As this light eventually became all that I could see and from what I sense now, to be all that I was and still am, suddenly my ears popped. The sound of what I can only compare to a gun being shot blew through my ears and I was awoken quite abruptly back into my bed where I laid.
When this first happened, I was very shocked. It was very unusual and honestly, kind of spooked me. Here I was, only 20 at the time, having experienced some mystical golden light. I remember when I first experienced it, I had googled it. At first, I thought my head had exploded! I even confided in the man I was seeing at the time, that I thought I had a spiritual awakening. And looking back at it now, spiritual awakening feels pretty spot on. Now my head exploding? Maybe that could be true in a metaphorical sense. I basically woke up to a lot of the illusions and negativity I was holding after this experience. I had what I may describe as an “epiphany.”
After this light experience, I eventually became interested in consciousness, enlightenment and spirituality. I slowly but surely found myself with all kinds of books by many spiritual teachers. Eckhart Tolle, Ram Dass and David R. Hawkins just to name a few. One of the key things that I’d always keep in mind through it all was that the truth would always be within me. And I still apply this every day.
Now that I am 24, I have come to find that A Course in Miracles truly resonates with me. In fact, there is a passage in the text that really speaks to me. It comes from Chapter 21: The Forgotten Song and actually reminds me of the Light I experienced way back in 2018. It goes like this:
8. Beyond the body, beyond the sun and stars, past everything you see and yet somehow familiar, is an arc of golden light that stretches as you look into a great and shining circle. ²And all the circle fills with light before your eyes. ³The edges of the circle disappear, and what is in it is no longer contained at all. ⁴The light expands and covers everything, extending to infinity forever shining and with no break or limit anywhere. ⁵Within it everything is joined in perfect continuity. ⁶Nor is it possible to imagine that anything could be outside, for there is nowhere that this light is not.
9. This is the vision of the Son of God, whom you know well. ²Here is the sight of him who knows his Father. ³Here is the memory of what you are; a part of this, with all of it within, and joined to all as surely as all is joined in you. ⁴Accept the vision that can show you this, and not the body. ⁵You know the ancient song, and know it well. ⁶Nothing will ever be as dear to you as is this ancient hymn of love the Son of God sings to his Father still.
10. And now the blind can see, for that same song they sing in honor of their Creator gives praise to them as well. ²The blindness that they made will not withstand the memory of this song. ³And they will look upon the vision of the Son of God, remembering who he is they sing of. ⁴What is a miracle but this remembering? ⁵And who is there in whom this memory lies not? ⁶The light in one awakens it in all. ⁷And when you see it in your brother, you are remembering for everyone.(ACIM, T-21.I.8:1–10:7)